I can't believe it's been a year since Landon has been born. I can't imagine my life without him. This year has brought me so much joy! Looking back on all the things he's done I just can't believe he's come so far and grown so fast! I can remember taking him home from the hospital. He slept all the time. I remember the closeness we had when I breastfed him. I remember waking up in the middle of the night to take care of him. I remember his first bath and his first coo, his first smile and when he rolled over. I remember him scooting across the floor. Now hes officially a toddler and almost walking! WOW! I remember when I first brought him home I was overwhelmed with emotions. I remember holding him and crying because I loved him so much. How can you love someone so much? It really just reminds me of Gods love for us. I am doing a bible study on Jesus and I feel like I can really relate to Mary. I see Landon and feel my love for him and think that he is just so special. My firstborn son. So precious and perfect.
My best friend and I recently got in an arguement. I think mainly because she wasnt used to the changes I have made in my life. I had to explain that my life was different. I'd like to say I am the same but that would be a lie. I am different. I am happy that I am. God changed me and my heart. I have been saved. I never knew what that meant. I actually used to make fun of people who used the word "saved". Like, what the heck does saved even mean? Saved from what? Saved by who? For me, being saved means being free. I am saved from the binds of my own insecurity. I feel at peace with my life. Even though things may get hectic, Landon might be fussy, I might be super busy, Taylor might annoy me... Nothing can rain on my parade! I feel like God has equiped me to live this life I am living. If I stay on his path, then I can fight through anything that is thrown my way.
I didn't know what my life was going to be like as a mom.. But I feel like now I can't imagine not being a mom. I feel like God has completely given me everything that I need in order to fulfill this task. Motherhood has saved me and I am so grateful for that! I love my life and my family!
Birthday boy is up from his nap... Its lunch time then play time with my precious one year old! He's not a baby anymore!
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