School, drool

It seems like I would feel ready for the semester to be over a lot closer to the actual end of the semester. I still have 3 more weeks until Spring Break! At the begining of the spring, I was super overwhelmed and bummed because my classes are boring. The first week of class (AKA syllabus week), was overwhelming in and of itself just because we are going over all of our tests, projects, and presentations all at once. In addition, Taylors new promotion requires 40 hours a week. Although that is great news, he isnt home as much as he was last semester. So now I have to really utilize my time and find a lot of help elsewhere. Man, this grown up business is whack!

I think one of the main reasons I am ready for this semester to end is because in the Summer I will be starting my practicum! I will finally put to use all of the skills I have been learning and working toward for the past 6 years! I have landed an internship, which I will probably stay at until I graduate, at EDCASA, The Eating Disorder Center at San Antonio. I have prayed and prayed for God to open doors for me and he really has! This was the first place I contacted and after 2 interviews, I got the job! I really feel like this is the path for me. During all of my course work (undergrad & graduate), I have focused my research on learning more about eating disorders and body image. Currently, I am deepening my understanding of these issues through the lens of different groups of people, such as the lesbian and gay community. People are just so interesting!

During my Beth Moore bible study homework last week, one of the questions was asking us to decipher the differences between our task and our calling. I think my task is to be a counselor. I feel like that is what I was made to do. I want to help people feel better about themselves, come to gripes with reality and find a way to have a happy, healthy life in every realm. My calling is to bring people closer to Christ, through my life, self- disclosure, and character. As a counselor, however, I am not to impose my beliefs on my clients. I am ethically required to accept and counsel anyone and everyone who might walk into my office. God is the ultimate Counselor! I think one of my biggest struggles might be to not tell people to rely solely on Him!!! Although I can help people come to terms with their spiritual understandings, whatever that might be, I cannot make a suggestion that would persuade them to follow my beliefs. I know my insides will be screaming "Just follow God! He loves you and accepts you no matter what! He has a plan for your life!"

I am definitely excited about my career. Actually, I am excited about all the areas in my life right now. I feel like I am doing a good job of keeping everything balanced. Thankfully, things are working out with Landon's schedule, my schedule and Taylors schedule. Somehow, even when I dont know how everything will fall into place, it always does perfectly. I am grateful to have  Savior who always takes care of me!

Plan B

I am reading... actually, I havent read a chapter in a while, but its a book called "The Plan A mom in a Plan B world". There is also Plan A woman... Anyway, the author discusses the many ways our perfect plans never seem to work out, well, the way we planned! When I first started reading this book, I thought to myself, surely my plans have gone way worse than other peoples plans... and surely, I deserved it.

Recently, I have met some amazing mothers. In my bible study, there is a mom who's daughter has abnormal brain development. Although she is almost a month older than Landon, she is functioning the same as about a 9 month old. When I was talking to this beautiful little girls mom, I was so inspired. I can tell that the journey has been difficult for her, but she has such an encouraging smile and grateful heart, it almost brings tears to my eyes right now! Another mother I have recently met sort of fell more into my situation. She and her boyfriend werent planning a baby, and he went out of their lives for a short time. Even though I didnt talk to her too much about their situation, I can only imagine how hard it was to raise a baby on your own. Thankfully, the father is back in the picture and more than willing to contribute. Strong women, follow Plan B, with happy hearts and count their blessings every day.

These women remind me that I am not the only person who has to follow Plan B. The pastor at my church even talks about following plan B in a marriage. He said it is better to follow plan B unified, than fight for plan A. I started thinking about plan B and wondered, aren't we all following plan B? Do peoples lives ever go exactly the way they had planned them to go? And if not, is plan B better? I guess in my eyes, if plan B is Gods plan then I will take that over any Plan A I had ever planned! Of coarse somethings are still on track. I mean I have everything I had ever planned to have, maybe just not quite the way I had expected. I did want to get married and have kids. Instead I had a kid and then got married. I planned to finish school and be financially stable before I started a family. But God just has a way of working things out.

At the end of the day, I can say that I am happy where I am at. God has given me what I have always wanted, just in his own way. I am thankful, and even though it may be harder than the plans I had, I wouldnt trade my life. I am also grateful to have so many women who encourage me and pray for me and support me. I finally have found a fellowship where I belong and can relate and can be real, open and honest!!!

So here's my advice: Don't fight Plan B, embrace it! While you might think of what should have or could have happened, the "what ifs" and the "might have beens" will only hold you back from the Plan that you are on now. God wanted you here for a reason. Find the purpose, or the lesson, or the way you can help others by being in your Plan B world.


Plan B brought me Landon and Taylor, a firey passion for the Lord, and amazing fellowship! How can you argue with that?!?!?!?!