A daily dose of PMS

Some people would argue that there is no such thing as PMS and that "PMS" is not an excuse to be a crazy psycho emotional freak once a month. I beg to differ! You know its coming the moment you overreact to something small or start crying for no reason. Yes, we women are emotional beings, but come on. Anyway this has been my challange the past couple of days. I am irritated, holding grudges, emotional, tired, and have had a migraine for 3 days in a row. 

Repeat after me: I love being a woman, I love being a woman, I love being a woman...

Its days like this where I really feel like a failure. Moments where I raise my voice, get frustrated with Landon, etc, etc... I wonder if blaming this all on PMS is just the easy way out. I wonder how men would react if they had a period every month. I was watching John Tucker Must Die yesterday. Its about four girls who try to get revenge on the high school womanizer. In one part of the movie, they replace his protein powder with estrogen pills causing him to act like a woman. He cries and throws a tantrum in the middle of his basketball game. He is concerned with the fatness of his thighs and complains about always having to do all the work. It really made me laugh. Anyway, I know men will just never understand.

So my blog is about a daily dose of love. Here's mine for today, despite feeling like crap, I did get a dose! Watching church online, Max Lucado was speaking about worship. He said that God made us to yearn for something to worship, obviously thats Him. But we tend to get caught up in worldly gods like money, an idol, things, a sports team, job, etc. These things will never fulfill us, because only God can. We go from one thing to the next and say, "if I only get the job I'll be happy", then we get the job and hate it so we say, "if I only get the promotion then I'll really be happy...", then the promotion happens and we say, "once I retire, then I'll be satisfied.." We keep going until all the "stuff" runs out. And yes, it does run out, or breaks, or breaks your heart, or lets you down. What you worship is usually what you identify yourself as. 

This is a good reminder of my life. I take a lot of pride in my home, in doing the right thing and keeping everything in its place. Sometimes I worship the perception of having it all together, which I dont most of the time. Sometimes I am envious of what others have or where they are in life. I really have to try to appreciate and acknowledge where I am and what I have. I do have a lot to be grateful for but we lose that in this world. We live in place where people tell us what we have isnt good enough, what we look like isnt good enough and where we are in life isnt good enough. Its really sad actually. We focus on what we dont have, rather than what we do. 

So, although I am PMSing and having one of those days, I also have the capacity to change my perception. Therefore, I will take some time (basically the next 5 minutes because Landon is going to wake up any second now!) to reflect, take deep breaths, forgive those I have held a grudge on, which is Taylor but he doesnt even know, and be thankful that I worship a God who loves me despite my PMS!! 

Good. Ok, theres Landon! Time to go!

-alyssa-